Tug-o-war

Life can be so complicated. If you focus on yourself, you're called "selfish" or "unempathetic." If you focus on other people, you're told to "stop worrying about what other people want" or "do you." Obviously there is a balance, but I don't know anyone who can look me in the eye and tell me they don't have any trouble managing both.

I have discovered that there will be plenty of times when life forces you to prioritize one over the other. After struggling with that choice recently, I learned that it is absolutely essential to surround yourself with people who lift you up and support your decisions. It isn't easy to make sacrifices in order to grow yourself, but it is easy to be understanding of others who are trying to do so. Graduate school is the first time in my life that I do not feel truly confident in my ability to do something exceptional. I am struggling a lot with that and it has become increasingly apparent in my daily attitude and general vibe.

With that, I want to take the time to acknowledge my lovely friends who have stayed by my side (even though I haven't had time/made time in a while to connect) and encouraged me to do my best without making me feel inadequate as a friend. I cannot thank you enough for your kind words, your endless patience, and your friendship even though I occasionally fall short <3

Nicholas your patience and love for me is clear. I appreciate the emotional support you provide for me (everyday, all the time) and the playfulness you add to my very serious life. I know I am not the easiest person to be around, live with, and love, but I am so thankful that you see something I simply don't in myself. You care about me, faults and all, and it means the world to know that you care so deeply about me even during the times I feel unworthy to be loved. You da boo.

Chee you are my actual rock, somehow still so influential and supportive when you are over three hours away from me. Your encouragement is helping me get through grad school and your positivity is so appreciated. I cannot wait to vent about life and get advice from you in less than a week! Let's make plans to ride, I need a Saddle Club moment with you again.

Jennifer you sweet friend you. No matter how many times we cancel on each other for coffee, you are there with a quick text of encouragement or hug when we see each other on campus. Your patience and understanding lessens my stress more than you can imagine, although I am determined to have our coffee date together very soon

Tyler you are only here for one more semester and it is almost halfway over. I am going to miss your sweet face when you leave me. I value our car rides together (even if they do only happen like once a month) and your love of nature and astrology is not lost on me. You encourage me to think deeply, question everything, and stay on my grind despite the lack of time that means we are able to spend together. I'm taking you to Bissett again soon so I can take photos of all your patches you've collected on your clothing ;)