A summer spent apart 5.20.16

The day seemed to drag on – I really hate saying that because I sound spoiled given where I am right now, but I really struggle with relaxing – so I spent my time tanning by the pool. Big. Mistake. I am now red as a lobster on only my stomach and the backs of my legs and am going to be in sooo much pain tomorrow. But hey... I’ll be tan.

Besides tanning/burning, I have been reading a book my mama got me for Christmas called Atlas Shrugged and it is absolutely incredible so far. I see myself in more than one of the characters in the book, which I love so much because it gives me a chance to reflect on how I present myself and how my mind works through things. If you have ever read it, Hank Reardon and Dagny Taggart are the two characters I identify with the most so far, but I am on page 50 of 1168 so don’t hold it against me quite yet.

Right after sunset tonight I was able to FaceTime with Nicholas. I love FaceTime because I get to see his cute face no matter where I am! I tried calling him during the sunset so he could see it, but he did not answer, so he only caught the tail end of the brilliant colors in the sky. It was still marvelous. He makes me smile and being able to hear “I love you” from him was everything I needed and more. My heart is much lighter tonight as I write this, most definitely because I got to hear his voice and see my little baby Willow too. I miss her almost as much as I miss Nick.

The neighbor’s pup came back today. He only comes around when my sister makes French fries, which is honestly the funniest thing ever. He stuck around for like six hours tonight though and was lying in the lounge chair with me as I tanned. Mind you, this “pup” is probably 60 pounds. He went swimming in the sound with Lauren and I, but is still sketch about getting in the pool (something my parents are grateful for I’m sure). I had to kick him off our patio when he started barking incessantly. I love that he was guarding the villa and trying to protect us, but this vacation is about relaxation and peace so I was not having any of it. He’ll be back tomorrow – we still have four potatoes left.

I am still smiling thinking about my chat with Nick. I am so lame and I don’t even care. If you have someone (or find someone) that makes you feel even a quarter as happy as I am right now, you’ve found your person. I know I found mine.